Horrible Fucking Day ...

Why? Well I had an interview for an opportunity I was very excited about. From the Craigslist job posting it sounded like I was a perfect fit. I have the EXACT experience they are looking for, at least as it states in the post. When I first applied for this position, they contacted me after I was offered the job at the last place (from which I was fired). So at the time I told them I was already working somewhere. When I followed up with the woman again, after being fired, she seemed really happy I did. So an interview was set up for today and it was to be from 2 to 4:30. That usually means I will be meeting with a number of people and things would move along quickly.

I met with the HR woman and then the Manager of the department. When I asked about the types of calls/emails I would be dealing with, the woman looked at me funny. She then proceeded to tell me that I would not be dealing with any, just handling reports of spam/scams. Well I looked like a fool. The posting did not clearly state that so I looked like a jack ass that had no idea why I was there. Then she was phrasing her questions in one way, asking for personal experience on something, when she obviously wanted "work related" situations ... she did not say that. Anyway, I kinda thought things were going well and spoke with her for about 40 minutes. She then said she was going to talk to the HR woman and bring in whoever I was meeting with next.

About 2 minutes later the HR woman comes in and says they have decided not to move forward because the Manager feels I am "not a good fit". I went from extremely optimistic and happy to having a huge knot fill my stomach. The Manager was very impressed with my work experience and some of the things I had to say. I was, I still am, completely unsure what happened. It is almost like it seems to weird to have happened. So a 2 and a half hour interview was dropped to about 40 minutes. One thing I found weird was that she brought up a specific persons name when she saw one of the previous companies I worked for, she asked if I knew her. I said "yes" and that she sat next to me. I then asked "Does she work here?" and she responded, quite quickly, "not anymore".

Needless to say I am now in a horrible mood and have such a negative outlook towards life right now. I know you are all tired of hearing me complain about things recently and, believe me, I am just as tired of living them. I feel so beaten, so bruised, by all that has gone down lately. I am running very low on hope for the future and things getting better. I have no money coming in and am worried sick, once again, about making ends meet this month. I have to find some way to come up with $750 for rent and another $200 for phone/internet/cable before the end of the month. I have no idea how I am going to do that. Every time I think about that, my stomach turns and I just start feeling sick. So once again I am, well, now begging for donations from all of you. If you have helped in the past and can help again, please do. If you have thought about helping but have not gotten the chance, please consider it. I am literally at the end of my rope. I know it is the holidays and I know you all have more important things to deal with than worry about my well being. I am just asking in hopes that someone can help.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. Take Care guys!