We stopped talking when I moved out here, then spoke again many months later, then stopped, then started. It has been back and forth like that for years now. I really fucked up the relationship in a BIG way! I have issues, I now know that, and will own up to them. But it is like the Boy Who Cried Wolf. I have promised him I would change so many times that I do not blame him for ignoring me this time around. And yea, I have tried a couple of times in the last week to contact him. I don't think the long distance thing would work, although I would try my hardest to make it work. I just miss having him in my life. With how I am feeling about life right now, it would be so nice to have him hold me in his arms and tell me it is going to be ok. Guess I will always have my dreams ....
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no but i have had weird vivid dreams that for whatever reason leave me in a bad mood when i wake up.
Meatball
I understand what you mean, I've had dreams like that- a fairytale land and when you wake up you want desperately to return. Perhaps it was a sign of things will get better. Clinging to our mistakes doesn't allow us to move forward, it only keeps us stuck in neutral.
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